Why Body, Why?

Perimenopause is confusing!

Hormones are inconsistent. The body does whatever it does. I am having some challenging times just as I am learning to love my body.

The body is a miraculous technology. It breathes without thinking about it. My heart pumps my blood without a any input from me. My legs know how to get me from one place to another while my head is thinking about something else.

This menstrual cycle thing? Well, that is just constantly throwing me curve balls.

Years of short cycles, varying durations, varying flow rates, is there anything that I can consistently count on anymore? Cramps for days, or none at all.

I like to plan things...and my body likes to test my ability to handle the seemingly random and totally inconvenient functions of the feminine form as I go about my plans.

I use hormone creams to help regulate the hormone levels. I take supplements to help my body receive the extra nutrition and hormone support. I show my body love through my affirmations and meditation practices.

My guides tell me about play and pleasure and to unlock these energies from my root and sacral centers and yet I am confronted with the actual bodily functions and the reality of how irregular my body is.

How long does this last? Can we be done already?

My ego is frustrated. The timing sucks. The inconsistency sucks. My inner child is screaming to be free of this responsibility. The responsibility of the menstrual cycle, the erratic nature of its cleansing.

I have been begging my body to be done with this cycle. I thought I was closing in on it and then it's back, making up for lost time, I guess.

My mind to my body: Can we be friends?

My body to my mind: Only if you can accept me as I am.

Just write? Where are you resisting accepting what it?