Where are my people?

Do you ever wonder where are my people?

I have been on a long dark night of the soul and awakening process.

Years in the making!

As you are pulled along in this journey, there are things and people that fall away. I have felt often as if I am all alone. others don't understand. The ones I was around the most didn't stick around and I had to face times where the grief just bubbled up and came out for the losses.

For a while it was one thing after another.

Walking away from a marriage.

Loosing friends as a result of the loss of the marriage.

Loosing my own identity no longer being coupled.

Doing things that people judged, even if it was silent.

Exploring the fringes and the edges, looking for what felt aligned and resonant.

Walking away from a career.

No longer having people available through proximity and location.

Feeling shrouded in darkness from the not knowing, the uncertainty, the blankness when left all alone.

Seeing that no one is coming.

The fairy tale was wrong. The damsel, she gets to just hang upside down in her tower, until it crumbles to the ground.

That is when you realize, it's on you.

It's on you to search for all the parts and pieces that you misplaced or hid away for safe keeping.

It's on you to climb out of the rubble and dust yourself off.

It hasn't been handed to me. I have had to alchemize, cocoon, and sit in the goo of transformation.

What I want doesn't exist until I am a match for it.

That is when it happens.

People start to wander in and out until we get clear as to what we desire and align ourselves to be.

When we are clear and can speak to who we are, then people begin to show up more and more.

Now they get to choose. It isn't rejection. It is discernment. Who feels aligned, resonating, and good to be around? That is a whole new level. One we didn't grow up in, at least I didn't, speaking for myself.

Relationships have been typically based on needs and exchanges. Marriage was a business contract, still is. Just look at the process when two people do their separate ways. Its full of legal documents and splitting possessions and creating written agreements regarding the products of the marriage - the children, business, house, cars, etc.

Where are my people becomes a quest. My tribe. The place I belong. Everyone deserves to have that place where they belong, that place that feels like home.

My question is: is it really about me belonging to myself first then I will naturally and organically attract my tribe?

Or...

Do we find a tribe that feels good to be around and then find that belonging, that sense of home woven within it?

For me...I have some desire for community, for people to be warm and friendly and to feel good being around. People who are leading with heart. People who are up to big things, like shifting how we operate as humans. Being less busy and more intentional. Being present in the moment and yet still thoughtful about the past and the future. Not stuck, moving. I want to feel the reflection of the love I have form myself through interacting with others. I want to live in a way that supports my freedom and sovereignty. I want to explore new ways of doing life without the judgement and criticism.

There is enough of that already in this world. Those who are here to birth a new paradigm have to be strong, 100%. And I think there are people who are eager to find soul connection and relationships that just plain feel good to be in. If you are here for soul connection, let's find a way to gather!

Together there is power.