Therapeutic. Energizing.

Shibari - Kinbaku Session #3 complete.

This edgy practice has brought so many lessons into the present moment for mastery of the self for me.

I was working through yet another ego death. They don't feel good, yet they are part of the process of unbecoming to become the person you are desiring to be. I was working through limitations and stories that were no longer serving me. The ones that talk about self-doubt and nothing is working stories.

They aren't true, but they are loud. Doesn't the loudest thing get the most attention?

The story was no matter what I do nothing is changing. Everyone else is changing and moving forward, but I am stuck here in the same place, still.

The truth is the work I have done in the realms of healing and challenging beliefs to move beyond my history has been powerful, committed, and unrelenting. I have done the work over and over. When things don't feel good, I do the work. I have an intensity of doing this work because somewhere along the line I committed to never again. Never again being the melted puddle on the floor in the depths of darkness. Never again choosing other people's paths over my own. Never again ignoring my intuitive guidance and knowing.

Rope Session #3.

This session was going to go deep. All of the lead up to the session validated this for me. Even as I drove to the appointment I heard "Go deeper, go deeper, go deeper." It was time to release the remaining frustration and anger for where I was.

I was tied and suspended 3 times. The first tie was the release. The second tie was the activation. The third tie was finding the edge. It was a WOW session!

I am so proud of what I can hold. I am proud that I said "Yes" to this practice.

I called in feeling alive again and the energy I felt after the session was big. I just felt the joy of being alive. I felt grateful for being here now in this moment.

This has been therapeutic in ways I could not have imagined.

It has become a portal to the new confident me.

Just write: What new things have you tried that surprised you and expanded who you are?