Leaning In at The Portal ATX

Another amazingly magical expansive weekend trip in the books!!

For starters, my flight took off without a hitch! I even got to sit in a window seat at the front of the plane! I am meant to BE here.

Let me back up a little bit.

I am following and participating in the world of Kyera T. Kacey, but I didn't stumble upon her world. Abigail Navarro McDowell introduced it to me. She said I needed to see how this coach worked.

I leaned in.

I am not going to lie, I am intimidated by what I see, but I cannot stop watching. I see a liberated and powerful woman who is building the life of her dreams. I want this too.

One step at I time, I get more active in Kyera's work and I come across Lily Mockerman.

Truth be told, I am very intimidated by Tigress Lily. Her work is an edge for me. It scares me and I don't know very much about it and I have some judgements and trauma that I have been carrying around with me.

Lily signs up for the retreat in Tulum. OH GOD! I am going to have to be in person with someone who scares the sh*t out of me. Okay God, I am listening.

Lean in...

In Tulum, we talked about being fully expressed. Lily shared from her heart her business and her why then invited me to learn more.

I accepted.

That is why I went to Austin. To lean in and learn more about sexuality and the bouquet of expressions that are available to those who are willing to see past their own judgements, social conditioning, and limiting beliefs.

I went to the full day PLAY PARTY PRIMER at The Portal ATX. It was an intro class. I learned terminology. I learned safety. I listened. I was exposed to new ideas, new standards, and creativity. I dabbled at my own comfort level. I was overwhelmed a couple of times, but I was able to recenter and stay present.

I had two incredible takeaways!

My biggest takeaway from this most amazing weekend was learning about consent.

Consciously asking for what I want and negotiating what I am willing to give and receive.

Consent was not taught to me when I grew up, and I finally saw what true consent looks and feels like on Saturday. This is something I plan to integrate and embody in my relationships.

It just makes sense.

The second was an experience. I volunteered to be the subject in one of the demonstrations at the end of the day. In the demonstration, I had to completely trust the instructor. I was anxiously excited and nervous. I had to lean in, my soul wanted me to. It was about embodying letting go and surrendering to receive the magic that was there for me.

It was a healing experience.

I cried afterwards at just how beautiful it felt to let someone else be responsible after negotiating and giving consent. The other students felt the beauty and the energy of what was happening as well. Life transformation in 10 minutes (forget the years leading up).

I am so grateful for leaning into my edges. When I do, I walk away more aligned to the truth of who I am. I was also a witness to other transformations that day. I wasn't the only one that was forever changed, my classmates were too.

I am proud of myself. I leaned in and learned. I asked questions. I talked to people. I let go of judgements. I offered kindness and acceptance and so many heartfelt hugs! My heart opened even more.

Thank you Tigress Lily at The Portal ATX! You are providing a safe space for people to explore and express their authentic selves in a conscious way which is so vital right now.

I am a different person after this weekend. I am claiming the kink that already exists inside - thank you for helping me recognize it and put language to it!

I am forever grateful!

Just Write: Where can you lean in and challenge your edge to grow and expand in new ways?