It's Not Your Money

I am sitting on this Sunday morning and this book on the shelf catches my eye.

It's Not Your Money by Tosha Silver.

I start thinking about how nothing is actually mine. Think about it. I am just playing with it in this moment in time through having an experience. The abundance of it. The lack of it. The dance of it. The attachment of it. Whatever it is. It can be many things.

What would happen if I removed the "My" from it?

"My" Idea to an idea.

"My" thought to a thought.

"My" feeling to a feeling.

"My" house to the house.

"My" car to a car.

"My" money to the universe's money.

It's all temporary, experiences of a different version of the thing. This is calling into question the appropriateness of ownership. Is it really mine, or is it just an experience of it in this moment?

It's Not Your Money.

Maybe if I treat it in this way, I no longer cling to it and suffer as a result of having it or not having it.

There is a fear around money that somehow may benefit from it no longer being "My" fear. The fear of being consumed by money - not enough of it, too much of it, people changing as a result of having it, it changing me as a result of having it or not having it...

Success. Failure.

Maybe this fear is underlying this transition from employee to entrepreneur. What if having money brings a new set of experiences that suck? What if people who didn't give a shit in the past, now all of a sudden start knocking on my door, simply because I have found a level of success?

Then comes this:

"My" hurt.

"My" expectations that could never be met by anyone.

"My" manifestation. It is simply a desire to have an experience.

Detach from the ownership of the hurt, the disappointment, the separation created from owning these as mine. Transmute it.

Find the blessing bestowed with gratitude for the experience.

All of it is...an experience.

Detach and stop the replay of the same experience especially around money.

I start thinking about "My" family - the ones related through the bloodline. Some people are here to provide challenges that teach us powerful lessons. I am coming to a point of thanking them for the lessons and letting them go. Letting go of the judgement. Letting go of the expectation. Letting go of the hurt. Crafting and telling a new story.

A story that includes learning about various forms of relationships - wisdom! Learning about coming back to center and finding peace within - empowerment! Learning about the circle of control and what I actually have control over - freedom! Learning about various versions of love or what was believed to be love - compassion! Learning about ways to oppress, repress, and suppress unique expression - authenticity! Learning about safety and standards that matter to me - self-worth! Learning the difference between judgement and discernment - self acceptance! Observing the state of jealousy and being patient as things unravel and reveal their truths through the experience - self-regulation!

Seeing the impact of money chained throughout all of it - liberating!

Why am I clinging on to the things that are holding me hostage and preventing an experience of freedom and liberation?

It isn't your money...

The outside isn't what it appears to be. The surface thing isn't the thing. The thing is usually found deeper and the way to find the beauty in the thing is to realize it isn't yours. To let go. To tell a different story.

Just write: What happens if I release the word "My" from __________?

Fill in the blank with one thing you are curious to explore detaching from.