Independence Day

Aia shared in a workshop the importance of men’s healing.  I was pulled in this direction and I didn’t know why.  I just knew that I was.

I signed up for her 1:1 training. 

I went to the Mayan Jungle to learn womb healing technique from Aia June.

We both knew that we would be working together in the future.

So many things had to rearrange after I signed up with her for this class and neither of us saw it coming. 

The bigness and the initiations. 

I had to walk through the fire and so did she.

This week I faced a lot of fear.  I was in a foreign country.  I was staying in the neighborhood with locals by myself.  I had no vehicle.  I was alone most of the time and left to myself to find my way through the city and to take care of myself.  I don’t speak the language.  I don’t know the area.  And it didn’t stop me, because I do hard things.

On the last day of training, I was very unsettled and experiencing a heaviness in my heart.  I sat with it for quite a while and then I just knew I wasn’t here to take the “test.”  It wasn't aligned and I knew it. I didn’t know how the day would unfold, only that I was not going to complete the training per design.

When she arrived, there was a lot of activity and I asked to speak to her.  We sat down and I shared where I was at and how I felt.  In her fierce love, she pushed back because she had guided me through a very beautiful session of womb healing with my hands.  We continued to talk.  I continued to receive her wisdom about what I had said.  She knows hard things too.

Her partner had offered to share her energetic knowledge with me.  This was a first of a kind offering and I am practicing receiving this year.  I said “yes.”  I was happy to receive what she wanted to share with me.  Little did I know at the time what exactly that meant.

Ivon is an extremely powerful high vibrational shamanic medicine practitioner.  Her beauty just radiated from her and I was witnessing her in her magic.  I was overwhelmed by what I saw her do.  She energetically heals while Aia conducts hands on physical body work.  It is a magical and beautiful dance that is incredibly powerful and life changing for the person on the table. 

I was meant to witness it. 

Why?  I didn’t know.

I don’t believe in luck or coincidence.

Aia asked Ivon to join our discussion because the shadows were strong in this one.  Between the two of them, they were working to show me the shadows that were controlling my path forward.  I was being held captive by my own fear and blocks that were so deeply held, that there was no other way for me to remove them.  I was at a choice point.  Heal myself or stay stuck in this holding pattern. They believed in my power.

Ivon, all week, knew what I needed.  She told me. I resisted.  “I don’t do plant medicine” I said.  She said okay.  At one point in the conversation, I was feeling really small, tears flowing, and that’s when I heard it. 

Surrender. 

I had been fighting and resisting the healing that was sitting right in front of me.  I was in front of two magnificently powerful women who knew and had exactly what I needed.  And I was flying home the next day.  I had gotten to a point of do I let the fear win or do I choose me?

In that moment, I surrendered to Ivon’s recommendation.  I chose me over the fear.  I agreed to the plant medicine healing.  It was R A P E (pronounced Rap-ay), ground up tabaco that gets administered through the nose into the sinus cavity. 

I sat in the fetal position crying and soothing myself as they prepared the ceremony.

They literally held me.  They loved me.  They believed in me more than I did.  I was scared and they knew it.  But, I faced the fear and did it anyway.

They talked me through everything.  They told me to surrender to the medicine and let it work and they will be there with me.

Not only did I receive the medicine and healing that triggered, but Ivon also brought her own magic to transfuse my energy.  She performed energetic psychic surgery on my body while I was purging and releasing the stuck and blocked energy that had been with me for lifetimes.

There was no other path to get to the life I am here to live without going through Aia and Ivon.  I was initiated that day.  I was transformed in a moment.

The experience of R A P E for me was difficult to go through, and the outcome was exactly what I needed.  I don’t believe there was anyone else that I could have received this healing from.  It was a powerful combination of four women, myself included, that made this possible. 

We all took something away from the experience. 

I had to witness the magic first.  I had to build trust first. I had to listen to what was best and aligned for me.  I had to know the love that was available.  I had to be with people that had high energetic integrity. 

This intervention was divinely orchestrated, and it was the only way I could and would say yes (I asked my intuition if there was any other way for me to move forward and I was told no).

I was liberated in the process.  I was freed from my own shadows and blocks.  I was transformed.  I was cleansed.  I was blessed.  I received messages and support.  I received the truth of who I am.

I cannot thank these women enough! 

It took four days of intense training, teaming and healing to open up the door for me to walk through.  They held it open the entire time as I paced outside until it was safe to enter.

I now know after the ceremony that it was preparing me for my trip to Egypt.  It was a necessary step in my transformation.  And to look back and see what all had to happen when I said yes to my intuition without fully knowing what was in store for me.  I couldn’t know or I would have not stepped through that door.

I am reclaiming my power. 

I am releasing what is preventing me from fully embodying it. 

I am profoundly supported in magical and mysterious ways. 

I am deeply grateful, humbled, and transformed as a result of this work.

I am truly blessed!

Just Write: What initiation are you facing to reclaim your power?