Celebrate Your Weird!!

I wanted for sooooo long to be liked and wanted.

If I can just stop doing this, and only do this in private when no one is looking, and go along to get along, I should be good.

People will like me and I will have friends and we will all have a great time together for the rest of our lives, right?!?!

That was my strategy. I dimmed myself. I stopped speaking up. I did what other people wanted to do. I stopped having an opinion. I asked questions to turn the spotlight away from me and on to someone else.

I was so lonely! Even when I was surrounded by people.

I didn't get it. Isn't this what I wanted, to fit in?

What I didn't factor in was the cost of fitting in. I lost sight of who I was. I became confused and had no passion or drive to do anything other than just survive.

And that is when I through in the white flag of surrender and said "UNCLE!" I give. I thought this would be the life that brought me security and safety and that I would be happy with that. Turns out I had to experience it first and then decide, was I okay with this version of me? The boring one that doesn't really explore or adventure.

I decided I was done with boring and the "normal" way of being. Normal is just not fun for me. So that's when I leaned into weird and crazy instead.

...and you know what happened?

My spark started glowing again. I was finding little nuggets that drew me in and were interesting. Then I started talking with people about the weird and the crazy things I was finding.

And you know what else happened? They started talking about the weird and the crazy things back.

I knew I was on to something more in alignment, because the weirder the better.

You wanna talk about aliens? Cool!

You wanna explore Kink? Okay!

You wanna talk about being a tree or a dog in your past life? Perfect!

You wanna share that you work with elementals, dolphins, Pleiadeans, Mother Mary, Atlanteans, ______________fill in the blank___________? I will get my popcorn and a drink!

I am here for it!!

Bring on the weird and let's celebrate more weird! Because the weird is what makes things fun amongst the mundane. The weird is what cracks our minds open. The weird shows us there are lots of possibilities. The weird might just light up our inner fire and pump some life back into tired and exhausted selves.